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sometimes i dont know why am i putting myself in such situations anymore.im like so freaking tired...why cant he just "act" nice sometimes..he may say im paranoid.but people around him can tell.and a girl's sixth sense will never fail her.i really dont know what to think nor say anymore.all i know..is that it hurts so bad.to a girl..every little things count.sometimes..i really envy those couples holding hand..happily walking down the street.i dont feel loved nor cared for anymore.it hurt me so bad.to know that the day i was drunk.he didnt cared at all.it was his younger bro and his sis's bf who cared.everyone else cared..but him..i dont understand why do i still love him.guess im stupid.and dumb.sometimes..i just cant help me but feel so depressed.and tears just flow.and the pain is overwhelming.its so painful...til i cant handle it.i feel so fucking unloved.and i feel that he's only nice to me when he needs smthg from me.i asked him to buy the penknife..was not to cut paper at all.i just needed something to vent my anger out.i dont wanna vent it on him anymore.and i dont know who to vent it on.but myself.i always tell myself..that things are gonna be alright..but everytime i wanna be happy..he pulls me down.i really wish we can just be like any other couple..and this is only our second month..and its already like that.i never knew..this would happen.if i knew..i would never leave him..i was so stupid.guess there's only one way out.let nature take its course.- i once thought everything was gonna be perfect.but truth tore my dream apart.
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